My ex

So last friday was very stressful for me. It was my first day day of college. I was ready and pack but everyone was sleep and i still had to get the truck. Truck couldnt be rented we had to rent a car. Like it was crazy it was tensed. So im piss off. And my girlfriend calms me down. As soon i get off the phone with her its another problem. So i got outside to vent check my phone. And i see my gf "wilding out" on twitter. So that was the iceing on the cake i wild the fuck out. I exploded on her. And i havent heard from her since. Couple days later my mind is like i should apologize to her. We both where wrong but i took shit to a whole different level. i wanted her to feel hurt like i felted hurt. So i said some things outta anger. And idk i didnt only loose a gf i lost a friend. So i had to call her and say sorry. And she didnt forgave me but she listen to me. We can never be how we started in our relationship. Thats what i wanted. When the love is gone what do you do. I remember the first time i made her cry when i fucked up and slept with a girl our relationship/trust went down from there. Im hurt that i wont be able to call her my Gf.But i can still call her my friend shes my diary. She knows and accept everything about me. But you know my mind still wonder how "us" couldve been like.
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